Je' mapelle Jolene.

Bonsoir!
Feeling complacent with the serene life I'm living with now. Just pray that it will stay ever the same. Heh, the weekend is here again! My first week in school was such a bore! I really couldn't stand Retail Accounting.. Two!! A continuation of RA1!! Ahhh!!! This dry and boring subject seriously gets me on my nerves!! Sigh. French lesson had stressed me out real bad, but it was kinda fun learning a language which is alienated to me. Moreover I get to meet and socialize with the other biz school students during lessons. :] I guess, Poly's the place where I make new friends. Hmmmmmmm...

Today was purely bliss with my band-khakis!!! Lol, went to bowl at Safra in the afternoon after lecture. I couldn't stop laughing at their seriously bad jokes and whenever they do real stupid stuff. Being with them makes me sooooooo happy. I feel like a complete idiot when I'm with them.. 'cause I always know I'd end up humiliating myself and laughing out real loud in public. Ha, well, that's what I usually do? Heh. We had Band in the evening after a long week break! I finally see my big JOJO!!! Omg, luh. You vanished totally for 2 whole months! Finally I see you!! Missed you sooooo very very much!!! HEH! Anyway, Nov and Dec will be quite happening 'cause of upcoming events and performances. Highlights: Annual Concert! :] (beams!) That's when I need all your support!!! WOO! Lol. Anyway it will be held at the end of the year, so still got quite a long way to go. Blah.

Have I told you me guppies have all died on me? I've got a new pet now! It's pretty healthy, happy and fat now I guess. It has been living for 2 days already! I'm so pleased and proud of my pet.............. goldfish! LOL! My pet goldfish name is Joo Joo! Aww, so adorable right? :] Silly. Lol. Joo Joo looks awfully like Bear. LOL. (silly grin) He just look like you, silly, stupid, round and oh-so-cute...! Awwww. :]

Not kidding right?! Lol. It's so adorable!!! Awwww.
Hehehe.. Okay lah, I'm about to hit the sack. Enjoy the weekend people! :] Loves.

:(

I'm so disheartened and guilty now. My guppies are like dying miserably.. Don't even know the cause of their pathetic death. Just flushed 5 little guppies down the toilet bowl :/ BOO HUU! I'm that distraught!!! Huanhuan and Olivia's guppies are swimming and alive, all except mine are like dying slowly in their homes, or more like their hell. :/ I don't know why they are dying!!! Sobbb.. I swear I wouldn't rear another guppy. I'm like murdering innocent lives.. But I didn't torture them! I change the water regularly, feed them regularly and OOO...... I'm so sorry little ones. Tried my best already! :'( Sigh. Sob...

School was alright. Just glad to see all the familiar faces once again. Sure brightened up my dread-school-is-starting mood!! Su-h dear was sooooo being missed by me!!! AWWWWWW :] kekekeke. Haven't seen you and the rest for almost 2 months!! Everyone's looking great with all their new hair-do and clothes! :] Real awe!! Heh. Skipped stupid biz stats lecture halfway through with Su-h honey! Yay! Me LOVES SU-H!!!! Chatted and caught up a lot about the happenings during the holidays! Heh.. Eh! You better stop making me embarrass can. Hahaha. Happy feasting tomorrow love!! Yay. On Hoilday~~~~~

Rar... I'm watching Princess Hours when my stupid dad changed the subtitles and language to chinese! Thanks ar. Like chinese is my best language. Thanks for saying my chinese's like shit! (smacks your ass!!!) RAR!! Alright.. Going to strum the guitar till dinner arrives. See y'all on Wed yo. <3

time to update!

Life's the usual roller coaster, up... down... up... down.... Whatever. School's starting tomorrow :( boo hoo. Sigh. Happy Deepavali and Advance Hari Raya Puasa to all my Hindu and Muslim buddies :] I have new babies to take care off! Lol, Mom thinks I'm mad for rearing those lil guppies. Heh. I will try my best to take care of them! :] No worries. Thanks Olivia and her brother for the cheap deals. Heh. I think I'll update as soon! My mind's not in the mood to blog. Sorry!

Lastly....
Thanks Minsong for the bbq!
Thanks Pisangs, especially Loulin, for the chalet, yo! Hope to hang out again soon!!
Thanks my Band-khakis for pool, badminton and band practices1
Thanks Olivia for those lil babies!!!
Thank God. That everything's fine now..

hmm?

I'm back from shopping!! Mmmm. Good medicine. Lol.. Baby sister was my shopping partner for the day! :] My feet is blistered and bandaged with 4 plasters, thanks to the new pair of shoes. Boo.. :/ Hmm, we caught 'World Tade Centre' too. It's okay only. Haaa, 'cause it's kinda long winded, but it has a twist of humor in it. Yup.. Erm, 3 out of 5 stars? Lol. Yup. I spent a BOMB today!!!! Not on clothes, or junk but FOOOOOD! Damn it! We spent like $12 on Carls' Jr. Their burger is about the size of my face! God! Pardon me, first time eating it.. Lol.. But all in all, it's great. Hahaha. Hmmmm, walked around to find Minsong's pressie.. Shopped... La... Had ice-cream waffles at Gelare! LOL! Yay!!!! Another.... $9. See? That's where all our kachiiings go tooo... Another $8 for the movie ticket.. It goes on :] Yawnnnn... The 'busy' weekend is coming.. Band again tomorrow. Whatever. Least it kills time. Alright.. I'm seriously too lazy to do anything right now. Good night. Btw, like my new blogskin? :] Heh.

OMG. Gerard Way is still as HAWWWWWWWWWWT AS EVERRRRRR!!!!!! <3 RAR!!! HEART x100000000000 MCR!!!! COOL MV!!! AHHH!!!
My Chemical Romance - Welcome To The Black Parade

it's going 7.

Hello world, I'm back to bitch. Well, I'm.. I don't know. Okay? No? Life is still a bitch! Don't worry. Sigh.. I miss Olivia!!! :( She's enjoying herself in Dubai while I'm stuck here in miserable Singapore. Come back soooooooooooon, please!! I need you!!! I need some coffee break with you. I neeeeed Starbucks and couches with YOU!!!!!! :( Sigh.. Couple of activities coming up during the weekend. Finally, I don't have to bore myself. I'm so sick of life. So sick. SICK! SICK! SICK! SO SICK OF EVERYTHING! I just wished I didn't have to care. (Ahem.) Okay, anyway.. Saturday's going to be Minsong's Birthday Party at Pasir Ris Park and Sunday I'll be away for PISANG'S CHALET at Downtown East! Yay! :] Oo alcohol, I missssed youuu sooo. Please don't get me drunk!!! I don't want to spout nonsense. Urm.....

I've been having insomnia lately. It's getting from bad to worse. I can now only sleep after 4.30 or 5AM in the morning. Yea, when the bloody dawn's breaking. wth. :/ It's making me pretty upset... Help? :(( I don't think I can survive the first week of school next semester with such a pathetic situation. Whatever. Just kill me.

Okay... Just had lunch at LJS(CS) with Bear today. Sort of celebrated his alr Belated Birthday. Happy 18th, Mr. Bear! Hmmm, bought him this slice of cake which was exactly the same as the birthday cake his family bought for him. So coincidental, luh.. Humiliated. Lol. Whatever. Chatted, and bought the contact-lense solution for Mom and headed back to SK. He had to meet up his friends in the evening for COFFEE! I WANT TO HAVE COFFEE WITH OLIVIA!!! (pouts!) Sigh.. Anyway, ya.. Just strolled my neighbourhood aimlessly 'cause I didn't want to go home. The quiet and lonely home of mine is ironically deafening to my ears. The silence just makes me want to scream. It's driving me insane :( So, took precautions and stayed outdoors. Ha... It's 7. Dinner time. No appetite now... I just had lunch at 3.30PM? Everything seems so bland now.. No idea why, feeling extremely moody, emo, tra-la-la... Eden's out of his mind!!! He asked me to go airport eat Sakae tomorrow before band. Eh, it's such a CHORE to TRAVEL, okays. Since you asked me out for lunch, I'll bloody comprimise you. Lol. No, I don't sound reluctant, I should say that I'm honoured, okay? DON'T COMPLAIN. You've got company! Stupid, eat Sakae must go all the way to airport. Aiya whatever, luh. Lol. Cya tomorrow, Cuckoo. Heh.

Hmmmmmm. Sigh.... So much words in the heart that are left unspoken. One day I'll suffer from some word puke. I reckoned you'd prefer to be deaf.. Sigh... I'm about to blow...... I'm just forcing it down.... My fists..........are going to be bruised.......... Drowned in the melancholy....... Deafened by drums, guitar, voices.. music... I'm afraid I won't be able to hear the world again........

Priceless....

boo huu.

My handphone was soaked when the bottle in my bag leaked. :( It's a total wreck now!! :( One of the button is spoilt. This button's a shortcut to my calender. Now, my hp will automatically enter the calender and save memos by itself! It gave me a pretty bad shock awhile ago, I thought something was fiddling w/ my phone! :S (ah~ choy choy choy!!!) Ha.. It's also the button to most of the options. Just now when I clicked messages, it automatically sent out messages!! I'm sorry Aaron if you have received 4 empty smses!! :/ Sigh... And most importantly.. this button is use to lock my hp! Sometimes it works, but now, it's being a bitch. I just locked the phone, now I can't unlock it. T.T (SOB!!!!) I tried restarting it, when I switch it back on, it locked itself. HOW?! It's broken...... :( Everything's broken.. Even me.....
(I just received an sms!! I CAN'T UNLOCK MY BLOODY PHONE!!!!! Why did I ever lock the phone when I know it's spoilt?!?!?!) Boo huuuu..... :_(

Band was such a BORE w/o the usual rebels in the section.. No screaming, no yelling.. Was trying hard to hold back my laughter. Hahaha. Everything seems like a chore when my life's so lifeless, boring, and useless. Seriously, it's also driving me up the wall. :/ I'm willing to trade my life for anything meaningful and useful that I can do! Hahaha. Be it, community service? Sports? Hmmmm, Okay I shall go to the library tomorrow! Hahahas.. Where's my pie??? Pie's missing from band today! My honey pot!!? Where'd you go? Oh yea.. I remembered, I'm going to meet her for ice-cream in school later :)) Hahaha, what a place to have ice-cream, luh. Just know that Cheers' having Ben&Jerry sales!!! YUM!! xpp Hahahaha. :D See you later, Pie!! :)

The haze's pretty bad tonight. It stinks real bad.. Singapore is hit by major haze, man! More bush fires? Did someone burn down a forest on Mid-Autumn Festival??? Save the trees!!! :(( I can't really see what's on the other side of my home. Maroon skies, hazy surroundings, cloudy eyes. :/ I'm feeling hazy too. Hahaha. Haze haze, go away!! Don't you ever come back again.. (Singing to myself..)
So, now what? I'm going to snuggle into bed now. See you in my dreams!

Where'd you go, I missed you so.. Seems like it has been forever, that you've been gone..

ecstatic.

Yoo hoo :) Band(sectional) was great despite that fact I was being screamed and yelled at by a pretty fierce red woman today. Lol. Hmmmmm.... I promise never to run across the zebra-crossing swinging a French Horn in my hand. I promise never to get chased by Eden again who was holding on to Jerome's mouthpiece and who was trying to snatch the horn away from me! And I promise to pack up quickly after sectional, kays? But...... I can't promise you that..... I will stop laughing, Seriously, I JUST CAN'T! Unless you make me cry, luh. :( Heh. Man, my section's such a rebel! Matthew and Jerome, you're not forgotten! HAHAHA. Conan's such a lazy bum bum! 'SL?! Why aren't you doing your job?!!?!?!' yells the angry Jade. Hahaha. I still can laugh after getting scolded and chided by her. (Smiles!) No doubt on every practice I will always make Jade angry and then she will end up scolding me. Lol. What to do, I'm a trouble maker, a chatterbox, a nuisance, an irritant, a pest, and your worst nightmare. Hmmm, not so bad, luh. :)) I'm a black meh-meh of the section. Lol.. Had a little early celebration for Mid-Autumn Festival earlier on after band. We missed childhood so much, eh? Litted up paper lanterns, candles and sparklers. :) weeeee. Here's a few eye candies for all!

Candles burn burn.. mmmm, the distorted heart-shape.

Solely lit by me! Just look how pretty they are! It has been a long while since I dally with this old-fashioned/out-dated toy..

They are none other than the Rebellious Hearts! :) Hur hur hur! Bunch of brats.

Shall upload more when I receive more pictures from 'em :)
To end of the day tonight, I decided to post a song I wrote this afternoon before going to band. Had tonnes of inspiration from a book I read, 'Conversation with the fat girl' by Liza Palmer, a few songs I listened recently, my life and love... Yup. This song is called, 'My Right Soul'. Good night everyone! ENJOY!

My Right Soul

It's really good to hear your voice
I only remember your scent and warmth
The day you went away
Pouring crimson into a cup
Cloudy eyes, I'm drowned in tears
I'm still here waiting forever.

If I were to one time
Ask for what I want
As the days go by and by and by
I promise I'll learn not to ask
So I well never get
Shown anything
Or at least anything
That will hurt us again

I get down on my knees and pray
Imagine when the prayers are said
Open my eyes
Everything I wished they didn't change
My right soul, left uncontrolled
Voices still in memory

It's the end, the end, the end
Why you're still here
Why can't we just say goodbye
Noooo, don't want to let this go

..... Sigh.

PS: One last tiny winy bit. THANKS HUH, SU-H.

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.

One. A great sense of humour. What a nightmare if he doesn't make me laugh. And you know, he really has to LAUGH OUT REAL LOUD with me. Heh, you know Jol. :)
Two. I hate shallow people. Don't be too superficial.
Three. Security. I don't like the feeling of being insecured :/
Four. Not too skinny, 'cause I would love to throw you a big fat hug!
Five. Spontaneous! I love surprises!
Six. Sporty! Don't have to be running, I hate to.. Maybe, cycling, blading, swimming...
Seven. Has at least one.. musical talents? Heh, man who plays the drums, guitar, piano or and other musical instruments are such loveliessss :D
Eight. Make me feeeel special, luh! (Blush!!)

Am I too demanding? Lol. Yea. passing it on nowww. Ciao~

happy children's day!

Just wanting to blog before having my lonely dinner. Seriously, I'd better stop being so eewwww ewww ew, emo-cheesy, Right? Right... Jolene's a strong cheerful and jovial girl. Right! :))

My 'favourite'(well, least favourite for this year..) month of the year is gone in a blink of an eye. It's October again! 3 more months and goodbye 2006. The time which is going at this pace is really starting to freak me out. The nex semester starting 23 Oct is scaring me too. Boo huuuu! :( I hate taking new subjects! I HATE ACCOUNTINGS STILL!! I HATE MUGGINGGG!!!!!! Okay okay. Sigh.

To whom it may concern:
Hey there! Seriously I'm fine. Just stop apologising.. 'cause seriously it's getting no where. Lol. It's kind of tiring to hear the same old thing. I'm just glad that you're guilt-ridden and you've realised your mistakes. (OOPS.) Hahaha, as in you know it yourself too. So, it's really time to change and treat that someone even better. :) Stay positive. AND I'M OKAY(least for now). Don't worry, you have my back!

Now.................. Just taking precautions to each step I take. I seriously don't want to make the same ol' mistakes. It's really really sickening.
'A simple mistake starts the hardest time.' Keep that in mind.
Listen to Chocolate by Snow Patrol :) This song is sooooo dedicated to me.
Good night. It's dinner time. IMUS!!!! :/